It's like my body is constantly thinking: "Oh, he trashed his muscles again? Clearly he doesn't want them. Let's just atrophy everything to hell and store every nutrient as fat instead!"

I'm at a point where it feels like no matter what I do, this plateau is just impossible to break. If I push harder or up the intensity, I end up losing muscle. If I back off and do less, I still lose muscle. If I keep everything the same, absolutely nothing changes. If I eat more, I just get fat, and if I cut calories, the muscle just falls off. Even trying to up the gear just ends up trashing my blood work without giving me any results.

The worst part is that I still look like I've never even lifted a weight in my life. I honestly don't get how it's possible to have this kind of physique while being on TRT, training hard for 6 hours a week, doing 6 hours of cardio, and keeping my diet 100% perfect. No booze, no drugs, no junk food - nothing. It’s total bullshit. I see guys who have never even stepped inside a gym who look better than I do.